The way my brain works...

It's been awhile since I've been here. I'm still a bit shy about this blog. One of the motivating factors in starting this blog was that it might hold me accountable to my work. Sort of a deadline to get through - in this case, it could be a deadline every new day with a blog entry. Fortunately, I am not that hard on myself.

Last week I went to the dentist. I was having some work done that kept me in the chair for close to two hours (not bad really). I do get nervous at the dentist; it is something about the smell. It brings me back to childhood and ether. This visit was bright and cheery and the techs were caring and considerate. Now this is where I show you how my brain works, how my ideas are generated.

I was sitting in the chair and I had 15 minutes to sit still. I started some breathing exercises to help calm me. As I became more relaxed and the chatter in my head quieted, I started to notice how my teeth felt or rather how they didn't feel. My teeth were isolated from my cheeks and tongue. There really wasn't much feeling in my teeth. I started to wander with with this idea of isolation and what it means to me, to others.

Isolation from everything will desensitize you from all feelings - probably. The quiet in my head allowed for the space to to think about my *outsider* project and what it's like to be marginalized.